Dear Lola

Dear Lola,

There was a time when you were inside me where I doubted that I would know how to be a mother to you.

There was a moment, and I still remember the day, when I felt you move for the first time inside me. You kicked me once and then twice. It almost felt as if the room was spinning. I thought of calling your father and frantically telling him about the experience I just had, but I didn't. I sat there quietly and waited for your next move. In those short moments, that was when it hit me that I was going to become a mother. I was growing a life inside me and soon, the greatest responsibility would present itself to me.

My world was filled with those same fearful doubts as you grew inside me and your father and I prepared for your coming. I read and read, trying to fill myself with knowledge. We painted your room in the prettiest pink and I washed and folded each and every little thing that would eventually go on your tiny little body. I was placing your teeny little socks into your dresser when it hit me...

...I was born for this. This is EXACTLY what I was brought into this world for. You! You were all I have been waiting for for all of my life!

Then you arrived. You were more beautiful than I ever could have imagined you would be. You were perfect and you smelled like heaven.

You are still perfect and beautiful! I love you so much! Thank you for turning my fear into something wonderful.

Love forever,
Mommy